Off the Deep End

Hey, everyone.

I know I mentioned this in my last post (over a month ago), but I suck at updating. I’m going to chalk it up to crazy genes and hope things get better from here on out. In my defense, I’ve been out of the country. Actually, in the past month I’ve been in 14 different states and three countries. So, yeah, I’ve been a busy girl. I just got back from holiday in Mexico and Cuba with Big.

I graduated, so that happened. Got my diploma in the mail yesterday. Officially the holder of a BA – woo! That was a long process, but I feel proud of myself because I stuck through it even though I had several hiccups along the way. I can’t decide if I want to hop straight in for my Master’s or hold off (if I get it at all). I guess it depends on how quickly I can find a full-time job. Speaking of, right after this post (well, maybe after I go get my nails done), I’m going to sit down and find 4-5 positions to apply to. I lose my insurance this autumn when I turn 26, so now the pressure is on. I’m not sure how this new healthcare thing works exactly, but I think if I have a lapse in coverage then my “pre-existing conditions” come into play. And that huge list of conditions they released? I have like seven of them. So I’m in a time crunch now to not have any lapse.

Still seeing Mr. Beetle. Still wary as ever over it. But still crazy over him. Nothing has really changed other than me finally telling him he either needs to get his shit together or let me go. Will stay updated on developments.

Started the low-carb diet back up yesterday. It’s difficult to keep track of progress because my weight fluctuates so much. I’m four pounds lighter this morning than I was yesterday morning. I don’t know if it’s like that for everyone or if maybe it’s just because I’m big, I have more water weight to lose through the night (we lose weight when we sleep by breathing out water vapors).

All I know is that after seeing pictures of myself on vacation, I don’t have a choice. I look like a big lard. I had Spam and eggs yesterday for lunch (okay, so the sodium is a little high…) and Chipotle bowl sans rice for dinner, so my carb intake was super low yesterday. I hope I can kick myself into ketosis within a few days. I have surgery on my hand Thursday, but after that heals up I’m going to start up with exercise.

I think that’s about it for an update? Hopefully next time I’ll have something a bit more exciting.

  • Dee

Midnight Update

Sorry I missed updating last week. I got my first assignment for the editing internship, which happened to be a full manuscript. The book was non-fiction and absolutely the worst thing I’ve ever read, but I can’t say much else. I powered through the work and turned it back in.

I’m exhausted. Besides dealing with that edit, I had a big week of homework last week and continued looking for jobs. I found one which is full-time (with some amazing benefits) and applied for it, but they were looking for someone with a bit more experience, I think. I figured it didn’t hurt to try. Put in for two more freelance gigs, but nothing yet.

Last week I did my first assignment for WritersDepartment, which admittedly ended up being a bit of a fiasco, but I got it done and there is $15 waiting in my account. I’ve been assigned another project, but I have like two weeks to get it done.

Saw Mr. Beetle tonight. I actually cried in front of him when he dropped me off. I’m a nervous wreck, I’m having a procedure done Wednesday and have to have twilight sleep done. I’ve never had any sort of thing like that. You could tell he felt bad I was so nervous, but now I feel like an idiot for letting him see me cry. I have a complex about people seeing me! When I was little and would cry, Dad would tell me it was the ugliest face he’d ever seen. It was to try and make me laugh (complete good intentions, my dad is not a cruel person), but still to this day that’s what goes through my head whenever I well up.

Tomorrow I’m going to book the cruise with Big. I’ve got to get up somewhat early to head down there (she lives an hour away). After that we’re taking my youngest niece to play Pokemon Go and then I’m going to record the next episode of my podcast I have with my best friend.

There sure has been a lot going on lately. I feel like I’ll never catch up. Mom says life is always like that. I’ve kept obsessive to-do lists for the past few years and she told me I would never reach the end of it because there is always at least one more thing to be done. I just want to rest. I miss childhood when I wasn’t concerned at all and could just relax.

Sleep well, everyone.

Dee

PS: I’ve lost 8 lbs. in the last week! Back on low-carb/high protein!

Great News!

My first article for Constant Content was rejected! 😉

It actually wasn’t that big of a deal at all. They wanted me to change “earth” to “Earth” (whoops) and reformat another sentence, which in all fairness did read kind of funky on a second glance. Resubmitted and awaiting approval!

Okay, but the real great news – had my interview yesterday for WritersDepartment and was offered a freelance position! That’s geared more toward academic writing (with some business), so I haven’t logged in yet because this weekend I’m going to Dad’s for the holiday. Happy St. Pat’s, by the way!

Even better news? Last night I checked my email and was also offered an editing internship with a publishing house. Guys, I am on FIRE right now. It’s only $50 stipends per edit and lasting 3-6 months, but the experience is what is most important there.

A week ago today, I woke up utterly unemployed. Today I now have two freelance writing gigs and I’m an editing intern for a publishing house.

If you ever wondered how boring I really am in real life, I celebrated this news with a new computer chair and a large Sprite from Wendy’s. I did start my low-carb diet on Monday, but I’ve only half-assed it so far. I mean, other than the Sprite yesterday (and maybe a few Girl Scout cookies…), I did well! In all fairness, I only ever half-ass my diet the first week or two. You know, I’ve got to get used to it! XD

I probably won’t update this weekend as I’ll be out of town and swamped with homework. It’s my last term – that’s what I have to keep telling myself. I just want to be done! And besides that I have to create a schedule for myself to start next week! Ah, this is all so exciting! I hope I get money rolling in soon! Especially since Big is wanting to take a cruise in June!

Oh man, that just made me think of taxes…anyone doing freelance writing or otherwise self-employed? How do you deal with taxes?

Dee

Quick Update

Apparently I’m going on a cruise in June. Big, my oldest sister, wants to go for her birthday in June and since I’m graduating in May, I agreed. I don’t know how I’ll pay for it, but I’ll figure it out. Right now we’re looking toward a cruise which stops in Mexico and Cuba.

I don’t think I mentioned it yet, but I’m having surgery in mid-April and I’m very nervous about it. I’ve never been put out before or even had twilight sleep. After having an EMG on my arm today, I now officially have a carpal tunnel diagnosis. He said it was moderate and it’s being referred back to my doctor, but he suspects it will be rehab and steroid shots at a minimum and possibly surgery. So now I have a possible second surgery on the horizon.

Today Mom and I started our low-carb diet. I forgot how hard the first few days are! I’ve been starving and so has she. Mr. Beetle is also doing low-carb. Except when we see each other – we give ourselves a dinner cheat on those days, so once or twice a week.

Tomorrow is my mock interview and I’m oddly nervous about it. I suck at interviewing.

I want to write more, but I should probably be in bed. Goodnight, lovelies. ❤

Dee

A Good Weekend

I know it’s been a few days, but that’s because I was out of town visiting my dad. Friday, though, I woke up to some good news! Constant Content accepted me as a writer! And WritersDepartment scheduled a phone interview with me!

Both of these are freelance, remote positions. And I’m not sure about WritersDepartment, but I can tell you for sure Constant Content is not something that’s sustainable for full-time income. I’m sure there are a few people who can make a living out of it, but it’s kind of like eBay, I think. Some people can throw themselves at it and live fully from it, but most people just do it for passive income.

Basically through Constant Content, you write articles and blog posts. You can either write about whatever you want or you can fill requests that buyers have submitted. Did I mention you set your own prices? Most articles are 500-600 words and cost about $50. Granted, you only make 65% of the total cost and then you have to figure in your taxes, but you can price accordingly. Some articles even go for over $100.

WritersDepartment is geared more toward academic editing. Not sure of the pay rates yet, but I have a mock interview with my career advisor on Tuesday and actual phone interview on Thursday. Fingers crossed!

Those two emails pretty much set the tone for the weekend. I spent the day chatting it up with strangers at an auction, got my homework finished early, and got a bit of the long term shopping list taken care of.

I submitted my first article to Content Creator and want to wait until it gets the green light before jumping in. I like to test the waters first, make sure I know how everything works.

Letgo and Facebook groups have not been helping me move any of my stockpile. I might try craigslist, but not sure. If anyone had any luck with certain sites, let me know. A lot of the stuff I have is specialty/collector and – as we’re from a tiny town – I think those might do better listed online. I’ll be checking out eBay shortly.

Anyone have any recommendations? A lot of what I have to sell are shoes and clothes brand new with the tags still on them. Other that that I have tons of movies, book, and misc. household items.

Speaking of which, is it too early to start packing things into boxes for future moving? Or too ridiculous that I have a checklist app for when moving? This is besides not even having enough money to even let my eyes land on an apartment, much less rent one. Still, it’s such a pretty thought I can’t help it.

Very tired today, took some sleeping meds. Until next time, loves.

Dee

Looking Forward

I realize now that yesterday’s post was just one big bitch fest and I apologize. I think it was necessary because I needed a platform to tell what really happened, even if my audience is composed of complete strangers to whom I now probably seem crazy.

If you read yesterday’s post and you’re still here – thank you.

This is not a bitch blog and I don’t want to give the impression that it was. I’ve just had a very bad few months and there was no way for me to go forward with a personal blog without having gotten it off my chest. I actually feel loads better knowing it’s out there in the open.



I’ve just gotten off track and clicked that button twice and now there’s two lines and I haven’t the slightest idea how to get rid of them. Sorry.

Okay, so going out with Mr. Beetle tonight. Going to have Japanese and then play Pokémon, I think. I’ve decided to dust off the old hot rollers in attempt to try something new which I’m sure will probably end horrifically as all my hair attempts do, but I just…want to look pretty, I guess. I have very thin and fine hair, so most hairstyles look awful and expose thin spots. Curls often cover it because I have very curl-prone hair, so I can get some major volume if I try at it. I just also have very frizzy hair, so there’s a thin line to walk in taming it!

I have a career placement meeting Thursday with my college and a mock interview, so I’m trying to prepare for that. I’m rotten at interviews, though, so my nerves are shot and it’s not even a real interview!

As for actual work, I’ve started a few smaller streams of income that I can hopefully build up in the meantime. I’ve started a YouTube account and loaded a few videos doing that whole surprise toy opening thing (if you don’t know about it, you probably don’t have kids in your life). I’ve also been buying things on the cheap and flipping them (mostly stuff I’ve gotten from sales). A few months ago my sister and I hit some major sales and got some serious deals – I’m talking clothes and shoes for a quarter apiece. Cute clothes! My favorite maxi skirt and jeggings came from this sale and cost a quarter for each! We ended up spending about $50 together and we retailed at over $1200. Seriously. So I’ve been working through that stock and selling the clothes off on Facebook groups and Letgo. If you know of any better outlets for selling clothes, though, please let me know!

I recently read that you should have three hobbies: one to make you money, one to keep you fit, and one that you enjoy. So, I decided to pick up something I haven’t done since I was little – making paper from other recycled paper goods. If it goes as well as I remember it going, I might open an Etsy shop for recycled goods. So that’s a potential for hobby which makes me money.

As for keeping fit, that just sounds miserable. I’ve always dabbled in yoga, but that’s more for vegging me out and less for making me fit (let’s be honest, it’s going to take a hell of a lot more than yoga to get my ass in shape). I did, however, think maybe doing a 5k could be fun. I say that now from a very comfortable butterfly chair in which I have sat most of the day, only getting up to eat, pee, or take the dog out. But apparently there’s a program called Couch to 5k and it’s for absolute beginnings to get you ready in 30 days. And I’m not even necessarily saying I would run or even jog the whole thing. It just seems like something fun to do, I think.

As for hobby I enjoy, I may have too many of those already – eating, watching Netflix, playing Xbox, living a better life via Sims 4. What I’m going to do, though, is focus more on writing. It’s my passion and what I truly want to do with my life. And while I’m realistic and know being able to support myself off writing alone is a longshot, it’s not going to stop me. I would write no matter what and always will, even if it’s just for myself or friends. It’s just that big a part of me.

A real job is something I need, though. I’ve been scouring job boards for positions in Columbus (close enough to commute until I can move there) or remote positions. I think I mentioned this in yesterday’s post, but I’m look for fulltime $15/hr or salaried $24,000. I think I’ll be okay on that and can cover my expenses.

Good news: Dad had about a million totes in the attic for me to go through and he’s been saving me up stuff he finds at auctions or estate sales, which is kind of his thing. I pretty much have everything except cutlery and a dinette set. Seriously, he’s got two totes of our older towels that he put up from the divorce, he’s got two totes of pots, pans, and kitchen utensils. He even put up a napkin holder for me! And I didn’t know he’d set aside out old leather couch and my grandma’s chair (which just needs reupholstered and it’s a quick tack job). So I’m actually in pretty good shape. Just minor stuff and things I can deal without at first.

It’s just getting the job and getting out of here. But things are looking up!

Dee

The Mess Deepens

Fuck.

Okay, first off, sorry. I’ve never really been the bloggy type, so this is new and I forget it’s a thing. Sorry sorry sorry for the long gap in posts.

So. Fuck.

Mr. Beetle is back in my life and, apparently, he has intentions to leave his marriage. I asked him if that decision was independent of me, like he was going to do it anyway and he said yes. I don’t know, like of course I want to believe him, I’ve been crazy about him for a long time. But you hear about this sort of thing all the time and it hardly ever works out, like it’s almost always a lie but I want to believe him so bad.

But, I digress.

Right now I’m sitting here watching Angel aaaand that’s about all I’ve been doing lately. I need a job. I had a lead on one that I was soooo excited about, it’s working from home, but you have mandatory training for two weeks in January and guess who got chosen as a petit juror for the month of January? This is my life. I think for about three seconds that maybe I have a path and then the wind blows, the dirt scatters, and the path is gone.

Let’s see…I bought a pepper plant? Well, a dying pepper plant on clearance for a quarter. I thought it might give my life some meaning to revive it, but so far it’s not bouncing back so great. To be fair it was probably a lost cause anyway with winter weather setting in, but it looked so pitiful that I couldn’t pass it up.

NaNoWriMo didn’t happen this month, not with these intense classes I’m in. I’m beyond ready for this degree to be done and over. Done in May, done in May, done in May. That’s all I can keep telling myself. I decided for the time being to hold off on the master’s to let my brain breathe for a little bit.

I guess my current goal right now is to get employed and get out of this house. I need my own place. I need a space that is just mine. The big city about an hour north of here is looking more and welcoming, I’ve even run some price checks on rent in different neighborhoods. I think if I can get a job making around $2000 a month, I can swing it. So that’s my goal right now, to get as close to that as humanly possible.

Oh! I started taking/selling Plexus. And in the first two weeks I GAINED TEN POUNDS. Not sure I’m completely sold on it. But, I started taking an additional product and dropped eight of the ten in a week, so I’m still up two but going to give it another month to see. I mean, honestly, at this point what does it matter, I’m near the heaviest I’ve ever been. Since I quit smoking in July, I put on 30 pounds (now minus eight).

Other than those few updates, there’s nothing new. Started selling my stuff to get some extra cash. Trying to get my hands on a NES Classic just like everyone else. Still miserable. Nothing new.

Dee